Shhh! Its a secret

Yes it’s true. I’ve kept the fact that I’m writing a novel a secret from most of my friends and family. (with the exception of my husband and a small amount of people)

*gasp*

Why?

I’m not entirely sure. The reasons pile on top of one another. I was never a lover of the written word–writing–guru–english major–type of person. (Please don’t kick me out of the writing world for this confession.)

So, when I started writing it was for the love of stories and my wild imagination. It was silly. Really. ME? Write a book? Pshaw! Then I found that I loved it. So why did I hide it? Hmm . . . that’s been a tough one to answer. Let me try to explain.

I’m a quitter. No, I don’t like that. I’m a non-finisher. There, that’s better. I didn’t want to start my novel and not finish. If I told my family I know they’d all smile lovingly and supportively and think to themselves . . oh, here she goes again, we’ll see how long this lasts. I did not want those negative thoughts buzzing around.

I knew my non-writerly loved ones wouldn’t really see the HARD WORK and awesomeness that goes into writing a book. They’d only see the silly part, the imaginative part, the part I call FUN. You know, creating my own worlds, characters, rules and plots. They’d know that I stay up late thinking about an indian who often travels his magical mountain shirtless, and not that I’ve worked really hard to learn how to put emotions into my words and figure out exactly where that comma goes! (I’m still not sure) They’d think I was silly.

But when I tell them that I wrote a whole novel–a giant, full length Young Adult novel!–Now that’s accomplishment! I’ve been looking forward to that moment of big reveal when I get to tell my family that I WROTE A WHOLE BOOK! That my friends, will be a great day.

It’s been a long time that I’ve held this secret near to my heart. It’s tearing me in two. I can’t keep up the lies! I told myself I’d tell my loved ones of my passion once my first novel was finished. Well, thats taking a lot longer than I thought. So, on April 27th I made a goal to have my book finished by the end of May. *yikes* To make myself even more accountable, I posted it on my family blog, and concealed what I was actually doing. I confessed to having a secret project and told everyone that I would reveal it to them on May 31st.

Things are coming along great! Since I made the goal I’ve accomplished so much! I can’t believe that I can actually get so much done so fast. (Takes a moment to look around the mess of a house and the child zoning out in front of the TV)

So, on May 31st I will officially reveal once and for all that I'm a writer! Stay tuned friends, things are going to get wild over here!

Till then . . .

Shhh! It’s a secret.